Do You Remember.

Currently Listening 2 - Britney Spears In The Zone Album.

New song . its by jay sean ft lil jon & sean paul . its called "Do You Remember" . listened to it like non-stop on my way home from the club last night. i can relate alot to it with one of my ex's. you should know who you are. Anyways but yeah i'm like so broke it ain't cute. Don't got 2 dimes to rub together. Ugh. But yet i still find a way to go out lol crazy huh? Well tomorrow i'm hopefully selling my red metro motorola hint for 195 and ima use 95 of it to buy this sidekick LX .. the 1st LX not the new one and ima do prepaid sidekick plan which is 1 dollar a day and ima pay it every 10 days so ima just steal a dollar from my dad everyday lol . I think ima ask my sister to start paying my 49 dollar metro....why? simply because that bitch has no bills - her man takes care of her. All she paying for now a days is car insurance...her phone bill and her college loans and she works 5 days a week so ima have my mama ask her just until i get a job lol .

The club life is getting kinda boring and old. So me and my boo luis aka my club partner are gunna start just going out once a week . until we get our money up cuz we both broke but just know we never half step lolol always on point . but yeah one week we gunna go out saturdays the next wednesday etc . that way i dont wanna hear my family bitching i go out too much if they cant handle me going out once a week they can suck my boogina . but yeah no jobs yet still looking ... hopefully something comes before the new month because i wanna move out by next summer. ugh . and school is the LAST thing on my mind . but yeah thas bout it . im out . comments would be great . later bitches .

On The Edge Of It All *

Currently Listening 2 : Whitney Houston - I Look To You.mp3

Last night went to the club with my boo luis and these 2 faggots i just met last night. they were kinda cool. one was messy as hell all over niggas but the other one was nice. it was extra thick last night but fun i guess. i think ima soon call it quits on the club scene. why? because im paying 10 bucks to see the same bitches. it gets old after a minute and i cant even drink. so fuck it right?

im like on the edge. idk if you know what that means but its pretty obvious. just counting the days and still no damn job and ive applied for mad places. and this bingo hall shit the guy doesn't even call me. so fuck it. and my homegirl was suppose to hook me up with her mom to find me a job at a hospital but nope that hasnt happened either. ive probly gained like 5lbs because ive been feeling extra fat. on top of that my bank account has been ripped off. some site charged me 80 dollars and i only had like 6 bucks in my account now i got shit so ima have to call the bank on tuesday and fix this shit...because umm yeah wasnt me . so they probly gunna send me another card and shit so my mama says. still havent sold my phone to get my new sidekick because ive had 2 scammers...thank god i didnt fall for em tho because that would of sucked.

i was talking to someone who i thought wanted to talk to me back. but obviously not. not a shocker tho. im use to bullshit and lies. im not gunna make the effort towards him anymore simply because im not gunna waste my time anymore. and im not gunna get sad over him because a guy aint worth getting upset over. ive come to learn that after being thru bullshit with different pricks. but yeah this sunday is depressing. on my period. im throwin shade in plenty different places. my phone bill due tuesday idk if i should just shut it off or phone fuck someone for some money. at the end of the day i keep referring back to my deep thoughts . putting an end to all my problems by one simple resolution.

the bitch is back.

hello blogosphere! i'm backkk. i guess since i got no job and bascially no life other then sleeping in all day and working out and clubbin of course. ugh i needa job so bad. times are getting really tough - where my parents might lose their house but i see it as a way to start over. see if we lived in like a 3 bedroom apartment life would be easy. but i guess my parents dont see that...because they so use to living in a big house and living on 2 acres of land and being away from the city. ugh bullshit whatever. but yeah im hopeing i got this job at this bingo hall...make 6.50 an hour and its usually 5 or 6 hour shifts and i get tips which its all old people so they be leaving good tips. so cross ya fingers for me.

new look. dig it? well just did some plain and simple. ima use this blog for venting and shit not showing off who has the best blog etc. speaking of venting. im still single. havent had sex in like 4 months even tho ive had offers...i dont want it anymore. well i do but i dont. to me sex is so blah. its good and its whatever. and idk if i want a bf. i have my days where i do then i have my days where i dont. on the days i do i'm usually just horny and lonely or sad. and when i dont its when im feeling like a bad bitch and wanting to be messy and flirt lol so its 50/50 with me. but gotta work on me 1st. i'm now 205 lbs and i wanna get to 180 lbs. finally got my GOTTI DIET book in the mail the bestie bought me for my bday (btw im 19 now) but yeah its about frankie gotti who wrote book bout dieting and exercise. and he is so fine so yeah and we got alot in common with storylines so ima read it . anyways ima dip just gunna finish watchin melrose on dvd and hit the gym later. im backk . add me again to your bloglist or die k ? haha =] thanks bews. comments would be good. ciao!